Isn't it scary when U were juz wishing very hard for something , and it comes true or U really get it ?! I mean , itz like the lucky stars are juz shining on U , no one but U . Call me paranoid or wad , but I'm kindda freaked . Not to mention worried , 'coz good things dun really come to me for nothing . I'm afraid after I get wad I wished for , I will lose something or someone tat I love . Hope not 'coz if tatz the case , I really rather NOT get wad I want . So , prayz that things are really starting to be 一切完美 for me . :D
First , I managed to pass all my modules so far . Including the dreaded Health Assessment assessment that I mentioned earlier this month . Thank goodness that that 'strict' lecturer's bark was juz worst than her bite :D . Despite her giving alot of feedback , I did not need to re-do the assessment , unlike quite a few of my unfortunate classmates . And also heard from other groups that she failed other students , so am I plain lucky or wad ? Maybe she really pitied my pathetic , fat face . Whatever the case , I really thank her and my lucky stars . Juz left wif the Research and Clinical Attachments modules . Hope I can pass these final 2 hurdles .
Then , now that I'm motivated to study as much as I can (after being inspired by some of my lecturers in NYP) , I really hope to get more sponsorships to do so . Was juz telling a fren tis morning tat I really hope to get sponsored for my degree , then guess wad ??? My manager called me in the afternoon to inform me that my matron-in-charge wanted me to try applying for some exclusive scholarship offered by the Australian Imperial Force to do a Nursing degree at Curtin University , Perth , in 2009 . :O Okay 1-2-3 , everyone throw your heads back and laugh and say "Please la Ranz , U'll never get it !" . Hahaha , thank you . Need some wakening slaps . I am truely truely honoured that my manager and matron still think of and highly recommend me , even though I've not been physically working in my organization for the past 7 months . Really thankful to them for all the wonderful opportunities that they've showered me all along :D . I am truely blessed . But that said , I really dun tink I stand a chance 'coz my results all along are horrible . Pass la but horrible lor . Really shameful :p . And not to mention that the last recipient of this scholarship award (2 years ago) was also from my organization and she ended up being the top scholar or something . OMG !!! So I really think itz a HUGE mistake to wanna send me . Haha , throw face sia . Anyhowz , shall not disappoint them nor pass the golden opportunity . Shall juz give it a shot and try applying . But wun be disappointed if I dun get it . And shall juz hope for the best :) . Wish me luck k , peeps ? Thankooo ... Now , why dun my wishes and hopes for the 完美 guy come true ? *dreams away* ;D
OMG ! He's like super cool , suave , handsome , etc in the recently ended Channel U drama 一切完美 . U all know that I love medical dramas but itz really an added bonus to have a handsome guy as the lead actor :D . Muz gif credits to Michelle Chia oso la . They're so good together . In the show I mean . Anyway , back to Thomas Ong . He's one of my favourite local TV actors . *swoons* Look at that face , so hard to resist . Heh heh :D . Erm , quite difficult to find a better pic of him 'coz quite hard to Google for one leh . He's one of those low profile type . I likey !!! :D Haizzzz ... Juz hope to see more of him on TV . Anyhowz , really inspired by this show (U've gotta see it to understand wad I mean , so go get MobTV or something la) . Inspired in my own way that is ;D . Going to strive to make my life 一切完美 (Perfect Cut) now . NOT going to leave any room for imperfections . Uh uh !!! No more lousy stuff for me . No more being a loser !!! Imperfect objects , situations or humans (yes , I mean it) are only fit for the dumps . EVERYTHING FOR ME , FROM NOW , MUST BE ...
一切完美 !!! :D Love me , loath me , hate me , despise me ... watever . I dun gif a hoot !!! Hah ! I live MY life and U live yours . Mwahaha . I sound totally drunk and wasted . But I'm not ! *hic**hic* :D
5 am now . A cool morning and the crickets are chirping . Nice & peaceful time to sleep , but I choose to blog , while my mind is still fresh . So here goes ...
Juz completed 6 weeks of attachments in NUH on Friday (18/07/2008) . Gonna miz the place alot . The cheap , yummy Malay food , some frenly staff , the neat surroundings , but most importantly , the plentiful 'yummy eye-candy' . *Wails* Well , like itz always said , "all good things come to an end" . Nothing is forever . But I juz hope better things come my way . :D In all aspects of my life that is . I really wanna be a happier and more accomplished person . Dun wanna be a loser my whole life . *Prays hard* :D
Wokays , some backdated photo updates ...
Remember the bad bruise (to my right arm) I sustained unknowingly ? Well , itz much better now . :D So hey , I dun haf some blood clotting disorder la . But itz sure taking a long time to heal . The pic on the left was taken on 13/07/08 , and the pic on the right was juz taken yesterday (19/07/08) . Much better right ? But I tink this bruise shocked many people . First were my frens . They all went "AIYOH !!!" :D . Then came my mum , who screamed "AIYOOOOO !!! U OKAY OR NOT ???" :D :D . Then when I went for my monthly facial on 12/07/08 , not 1 but 4 (!!!) therapists were also shocked when they saw my bruise . Haha ! Had to explain myself 4 times that day . Then even my beloved Nerd , who is usually a very calm and composed person , also went "AIYOH !!! Tatz bad !" , when we met up on 12/07/08 nite . -_-" Thanks for all the concern and sorry to make U guys worry , but I'm very much okay la . :D Juz hope it goes off soon so that I can wear my short sleeved tops without feeling sheepish . Many of them oso thot that I was beaten by my boyfren or something . MWAHAHAHA !!! So juz to clarify , I dun haf a boyfren currently , but even if I haf , and if he ever beats me , I'll make sure this kindda bruise oso appears ON him ! On his face that is !!! Mwahaha !!! Dun play play ah ! I can't tolerate guys who beat gals up ! So , wan me to die , I make sure he dies with me ah ! Blardy b*stards ! :D
Well , some other bruises I sustained dunno from where . This is on my right thigh . Hmmm ... the best thing is that I always can't recall how I got myself these bruises . Maybe Genie gave them to me when I kicked her accidentally during snooze time ;D ?
Attended my dearest Kakak Wati's baby daughter's , Dhira , 6th birthday party on 12/07/08 . Kiddos these days are juz sooo ... lucky . So young got birthday bashes and parties already . Haiyah ... Me up till now , so old , oso dun haf . Mwahaha . Not that I want one anyway . Not really a crowd person . Prefer gatherings wif my family or juz small groups of close frens . Anywayz ...
The pretty princess , Dhira :D . U guys know that I'm not really fond of kids . But Dhira is really 1 pretty , sweet , smart and most importantly kind & forgiving little gal . Quite fond of her :D . She bears no grudges at all , even though some toads do her injustice . And she juz grins and bears it all , unlike some of those whimpy whiners who'll juz wail away , when they dun get wat they want . Sheeesh ! Hate those creatures ! Anyhows , U've got to see this !!!
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. The princess-y birthday cake !!! OMG ! Impressive rite :D ?? Almost too pretty to eat . But it sure tasted WOW and the price was WOW WOW as well . Mwahahaha !!! Poor Kakak Wati paid like $160 ++ for it . -_-" And if U looneys out there are still interested , well , U can get this type of pretty cake from Prima Deli . Juz dun ever get this for me sia . Haha . Dun and wun appreciate . To me , cakes are for eating . As long as they taste yummy , they can haf no decorations for all I care . Terrible hor ? :D
My beloved Kakak Wati , Princess Dhira and Boz . Miz U guys always !! :D Will be back soon , k ? Then we can go buy our nasi together again . Really miz those days . 8 months is juz too long la . But like I said , will be back ... soon ... :D .
Princess Dhira and oinky moi . Ermmm ... pardon my wind-swept look hor . But it sure was windy tat evening la .
Sure was a busy 12/07/08 . First was a facial in the AM , then was Princess Dhira's birthday party , then met up wif the Nerd at night :D . Chatted the entire night (till like 2am) at Yishun Northpoint's Mac . Ha !! Itz always fun to catch up wif the Nerd . Full of laughter & happiness :D . Muz catch up more soon wor , my Nerd . Anyways , the Nerd bombed me wif loads of gifts from the U.S. . OMG !!! Juz look at these ...
Lucky the Nerd was juz gone for 2 months ah . Ah bo I tink I wud need a forklift to bring back watever was gotten for me :D . Thanks Nerd , thanks a million . Really love the gifts U got me . Especially this ...
Itz pretty pretty pretty !!!! :D And EVERYONE says so ! :D The Nerd sure knows my tastes well . :D Muack !! Thanks a million once again .
Well , I'm quite a sucker for gifts these days , hahaha , sorry to say :p . I simply love receiving gifts and surprises . :D Useful ones that is . Dun ever get me ornaments or teddy bears (eeew !!) or bo-liao stuff hor . Wun know how to appreciate them , though I'll appreciate the thought la . But juz that these type of gifts will probably end up in the chute soon . Ermmm , people change , or rather , I've changed . I used to think quality time is the best thing to give me . But now , I think only material stuff make me happier . Makes me feel ... accomplished ? Well , call me materialistic , watever , I dun care . Ha ! 'Coz I'm happy . Sheesh ! But I still cherish the quality time I haf wif people I like . Still got heart la me ;D . Anyway , my Kakak Wati gave me this when I went for Dhira's party .
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A bag from Korea !!! Wif my name on it ! :D Yippeee !!! Haf been wanting this for a long time and now I've got it . Thanx to Kakak and her sis-in-law , Marni , who's a beautiful Leading Stewardess wif SIA . :D Always getting stuff for me . Thanx a million ya ? :D Ermm ... dun mind Scrawny's feet and tail in the top pic . The kaypoh juz wanted to be in the pic as well . Sheesh . :D
6.30 am now . TIme to snooze . But before I do , wanna share some gross stuff wif U .
A long , deep scratch on my right calf , courtesy of Kathy when I was trying to clip her nails . Haizzz ... There goes my almost flawless legs . :'( Sure will be stuck wif a scar for some time . Haizzz ... Wat to do ? I dun haf cats but tigers I think . ;D
Okayyyy ... goodnite ... ermmm ... good morning ? Watever la ... :D
Wokays , everyone knows I dun really like kids . But I'd LOVE to haf a sweet daughter like her !!! Pause my music player on the right and watch this :D .
1) When people say that I've lost weight , recently that is . Heard it 3 times , on different occasions and by different people , this week alone . Got meh ? I sure still feel fat :D . But honestly , come to think of it , my appetite has been like yo-yo-ing recently due to school work stress and inconsistant meal times , so maaaaaybe ba ? 2) When people have this thought all along that I'm a good drinker , of alcohol I mean . Hahaha !!! Now I realllly dunno where that came from :D ! Juz heard it from 2 of my classmates yesterday (04/07/08) . They say that I looked like the sort who can hold her liquor very well . Mwahahaha , so I told them , seriously , I haven't tried 'coz I dun fancy the smell and taste of alcohol or liquor or wine or watever sh*t there is . I dun like the rancid taste (haf only tried red and white wine & mild 'beer' like Jolly Shandy only - and found them all yucky and a total waste of money !) and I really dun appreciate the possible after effects , which is like to get totally wasted from being drunk (e.g. end up sleeping wif some unknown guy , blabber nonsense , puke like a merlion , or worst still , go knock someone down while driving etc.) . Uh-uh , no way ! But I sure can down jugs of Milo , Diet Coke , Iced-tea or good old Iced-water if U wan . Hahahaha !!! Okay , enuf laughing Sammy ;D . On the serious note , I was quite concerned when I heard this . I mean , do I portray such an image ??? Like a party-girl ??? Eeeew , I'm very 'guai' (goody) one leh !! Really !!! *sniggers* 3)When people ALWAYS have this thinking and say that I'm a smart and hardworking person . Now 1-2-3 , everyone throw back your heads and start laughing !!! MWAHAHAHAHA !!! :D:D:D They are like sooooo ... wrong I tell ya . I'm like the dumbest and laziest toot on Earth . I only do things when forced or got no choice but to . Haha ! And smart ? Hahaha , U know what is ACT smart ? Yeah , tat is me :D . Okay , tat was a damn bo-liao entry . Juz nid to de-stress moi self from doing my crazy 3500 words research write-up . Only managed to squeeze out 395 words so far . Another 3105 words to go . Haizzz ... -_-"
Till now (2.20 am) . Got home from school at around 5 pm (04/07/08) . Gorged myself silly on food 'coz was kindda displeased wif my own performance during my Health Assessment assessment :'( . Haiyah , whole assessment started out bad lo . First , I couldn't bring in my cue cards 'coz they were too 'detailed' juz 'coz they had the picture of the human body on it . Huh ??!! Waste my time and effort making it . But thank goodness I've got my 'live' cue card , my beloved partner Po Lam babe !!! Thanks a million , lovely ! Would haf like failed flat wifout U lor . Thank U so much for being my partner :D . Pause ... juz in case U readers are interested , for this assessment , we gotta BARE ourselves to our partners for assessment as well as to the lecturer sia -_-" . Literally BARE lor , 'coz muz assess the boobies as well . Haizzzz , fats and all :( . Anyway , so tat was my first sway , the lack of cue cards . Then , I kena-ed a strict lecturer !!! OMG !! Really muz go buy 4D sia -_-" . Was hoping the whole week I wun get her 'coz of her infamous nasty-ness , sarcasm and strictness . And was happy not to see her around during the waiting time , outside the assessment room . Till the very last minute she came waltzing by , which made my jaw drop and my heart stop sia . She still can look at me and give a little smile sia ! 'Coz I smiled and greeted her whenever I saw her during attachments , so maybe she like recognised me ! OMG ! Me and my 'frenliness' ! Did me in this time :( . Anyway , was still hoping I wun get her , but unfortunately for me , she juz like made a bee-line for me when the assessors were assigned to the students !! My heart sank immediately and I knew right away tat I wun do well . Haizzz ! Really fated sia ! Pause again ... tatz why U people better dun hope too hard NOT to get something or someone , 'coz most likely , U'll GET it or him or her !!! Arghhh !!! Anyway , I was hopeful , for a while , when she stepped out of my station for a while and another lecturer came in , thinking I had no assessor yet . Po Lam and I were like , "PHEW !! Got hope liao ." . But this nicer lecturer couldn't keep still , had to walk out of my station oso , to chat wif her students in other stations ! Then U guessed right , the other lecturer came back !!! :'( And she was quick to start signing her name on my assessment form . So there and then , my fate kena sealed liao lor . The other nicer lecturer came back and told her that she's assessing me , but this not-so-nice one said , " No , I AM taking her . I signed my name on her form already ." -_-" See , I told U , she was very determined to assess me rite ? Haizzz ... My groupmate later told me maybe she saw the potential in me . Haha , yeah , like the potential to fail lor . Hahaha , she muz be thinking , "Ahhhh !!! Early in the morning , this toad good to fail . Whooopie !!" Hahahaha !!! Anyhows , my tots were all in a mess when the assessment started . Really all jumbled up 'coz really disheartened liao . And thanks to her constant interruptions , my tots really flew away sia . Towards the end , I really like gave up and juz anyhow completed the assessment . Haizzzz !! Then came her feedback , which I tot were quite lenient and kind from her usual times . She said some of my techniques were not quite correct and I missed out some steps but I managed to finish all systems . So , I really dunno if I passed or failed sia . We wun know till we get our transcripts . And like I said , she was quite kind today 'coz she can joke with us and say that "no news is good news la !" . Which meant that if we dun hear anything from our own group co-ordinator subsequently , it meant that we pass lor . Haizzzz . Dunno nid to wait for how long . And I really hope I dun need to re-take the darn assessment . Wish hard for me peeps :( . Okay , then the last sway was that I nearly lost 2 library books !! In my jittery state , I left them outside the assessment room , only to return and find them gone !!! I was like , "Oh SHIT !!! My day is damned bad !" Luckily , it was the kind students and lecturer of the class next door who had picked them up and kept them safely till I approached them , hoping that they saw it . And all that was made possible by my lovely partner Po Lam again , who suggested to konked-out me , to try asking that class . My saviour babe !!! :D My guiding light when my thoughts were all messed up . Hehehe . Haizzz , so now , juz hope that I can pass the assessment wifout having to re-take it lor . Pass enuf liao , no nid A or B , juz D I happy liao :'( . Okay , now for some photo updates . Gotta start wif this rather big patch of 'or-chea' (blue-black / haematoma ??) on my right arm . Really dunno how the hell I got it . Dun remember knocking myself there . Maybe kena pinched by some 'gwee' during my sleep sia . Hahaha . But seriously , it looks and feels bad now . So sore . And Sammy , I noticed it the day after the paintball thingy (30/06/08) . But I dun remember getting 'shot' leh . Or did I ? In my excitement I didn't feel anything ? Watever ...
On Tuesday (01/07/08) .
Now (05/07/08) .
Hope itz nothing serious like a pathological fracture or something . Mwahaha . Paranoid me . 'Coz it really hurts and there's like a hard lump felt . Haizzz , die die la , who cares . Juz dun wanna suffer long before I die sia :p . K , 'nuff said . K , this is for Sammy . Introducing ...
Handsome Scrawny !!! He's not new la . Was one of my community cats before . But he always got into fights with another cat (called Rocky by his caregiver , my neighbour H) and always sustained bad injuries , so we often had to lug him home to recuperate . So , slowly , Scrawny got so attached to the house and the gals maybe (as in my other 5 cat babes) , till he refused to be a stray anymore . Always sit outside our house and cry . Haizzz , so we took him in as well lor . And ya , so tat means I've got 6 felines , 1 canine and 1 porcine (me la !) in the house now . Tatz why my parents always complain that they're living in a zoo . Hahaha . And I pity them . Hahaha . Hey , I'm not mad wokays . I mean I know some people will be thinking that we are , living wif so many animals . But I tell ya , animals are natural de-stressers and are a joy to live with . They provide so much joy wif their antics and itz good to juz share watever U can with the less fortunate . One of my fantasies is to be able to open a home , some day (in my dreams maybe) , to house all unwanted animals and humans . To provide them with food , shelter and comfort for the rest of their lives . To make them feel that they belong to somewhere safe . :D Tatz really my wish for every living thing in the world sia . To haf food and shelter and love always ! Haizzzz , dream some more Ranz . And sugar-daddy , where are U again ??? :D Yawns , 4am now . Wanna snooze liao . Juz some random shots before I go snooze . :D
My lovely groupmates on the day of the research presentation thingy . All wearing the group tee :D . Haizzzz , we did the best we could la . And juz hope peace is wif all of us now . Juz forget the whole shit and any enmity we had . Life is too short la . P-E-A-C-E ! Dun tink can be frens good frens wif some of them now , but definitely dun wanna be enemies . Cheers !
Some of my other classmates . Gonna miss most of U guy and gals :D when the course ends , soon . All the best wor :D .
